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As promised, my subscription is up and it's time for me to leave this site.

We had a good run guys, we did our best, had some laughs. But in the end, the tears became more than what the laughter could handle.

I'm sorry I wasn't good enough for you.

I'm sorry I couldn't stop your pain.

I'm running away. I can't stand to think of you. Of what we might have been. It hurts.

Goodbye.
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I write because it keeps me sane

::What's New::


So my February is shaping up to be a really interesting month. I've stopped sleeping all night again, this is not a good thing. Yesterday I was so tired I fell asleep while making plans for my trip to Boston next month. I should be there around the 17th and for a few days, length of visit dependent on my financial situation. So if any of you lovely Bostonian deviants want to come play, let me know and I will work something out.

Speaking of gatherings, if you're in Michigan, you should really go to this art show:

Yesterdays Dream

My friends Tone and Niche are playing, and they're still looking for artists to submit some art so if you want to have some work displayed, here's the information about that:

Photobucket

If you're on my side of town (North of Detroit-ish) and you would like to go, but don't have a ride note me and again, we will work something out. I love helping local artists out, so it would be super awesome if we could carpool to a show. Let me know if any of you are interested.

I think that's really all for right now. I know I haven't done features in a while but I've really been too busy to go through my inbox. There's like 1000 deviations in there that I need to clear out. Bear with me.

Your "Ayrab" Princess
:heart:


::Loved Lyrics of the Week::
Every commercial makes us die, a little bit
Every pop star makes us doubt, a little bit
Every new car makes us choke
On how little air we get and how we get it

The celebrity makes us filthy, a little bit
Every single ad makes us gag, a little bit
Every photograph makes us age
Each sound bite deafens, each sales event condemns

Talk about luck, you tell me, tell me what I got
You fucking give it to me, I won, I win a lot
You’re not happy, well, no one gives a shit
This is a game and you’re a part of it
Maybe it's time for you to quit

Because every new car you buy
It makes the poor baby Jesus cry
Nothing bought or sold is good for him
For you, for me, not good for anybody, alright

Give me your coins and I’ll spend them away, one by one
Give me the chips and I’ll play them, before the game has begun
No one is happy and no one gives a damn
No one can tell me who I am or make me pay them back

Come on, every new car you buy
It makes the poor baby Jesus cry
Nothing bought or sold is good for him
For you, for me, not good for anybody, alright

Guitar

Because every new car you buy
It makes the poor baby Jesus cry
Nothing bought or sold is good for him
For you, for me, not good for anybody

Every new car you buy
It makes the poor baby Jesus cry
Nothing bought or sold is good for him
For you, for me, not good for anybody

And every bar you pass
Filled with musicians who want to kick your ass
Nothing bought or sold is good for posterity
And is not played at this party

World Inferno Friendship Society - Thumb Cinema




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Sometimes I write because it keeps me sane

::What's New::


I haven't updated this in a long time, mostly due to a complete lack of anything new to say and a newfound distaste for this stupid site and all its drama. The only reason I still come here is for CallsTheDogHamburger it makes him smile when I leave him comments and I like making him smile. Anyway, I still don't know what fucking state I live in. I still hate you all. So have a nice fucking day.

Oh, but I don't hate Chris. He's okay.

EDIT: Total bitch moment over. I wish there was more I could do for Chris. I really love that kid and when he's having a rough time I feel so useless. Someone bring him to me so I can give him lots of kisses.

Your "Ayrab" Princess
:heart:


::Loved Lyrics of the Week::
Baby i've been searching like everybody else
Can't say nothing different about myself
Sometimes i'm an angel
And sometimes i'm cruel
And when it comes to love
I'm just another fool
Yes, i'll climb a mountain
I'm gonna swim the sea
There ain't no act of god girl
Could keep you safe from me
My arms are reaching out
Out across this canyon
I'm asking you to be my true companion
True companion
True companion

So don't you dare and try to walk away
I've got my heart set on our wedding day
I've got this vision of a girl in white
Made my decision that it's you allright
And when i take your hand
I'll watch my heart set sail
I'll take my trembling fingers

And i'll lift up your veil
Then i'll take you home
And with wild abandon
Make love to you just like a true companion
You are my true companion
I got a true companion
True companion

When the years have done irreparable harm
I can see us walking slowly arm in arm
Just like the couple on the corner do
'cause girl i will always be in love with you
And when i look in your eyes
I'll still see that spark
Until the shadows fall
Until the room grows dark
Then when i leave this earth
I'll be with the angels standin'
I'll be out there waiting for my true companion
Just for my true companion
True companion
True companion

True Companion by Marc Cohn




::My Clubs::
:iconmuslim-women: :iconno-more-ignorance: :icondapoliticalforum: :iconatheistsclub::icondapride::icontalenthaven: :iconjust-sepia-club::icondainked:


::Close Friends::
:icondoublecrash: :iconpaledrow: :iconvandollized: :iconlazygunn: :iconvilandrasfury: :iconthequantumwarrior: :icondehouse42: :icongrace-note: :iconstarbucksdream: :iconsanart: :iconalice-anne: :icondizzia: :iconl0stc0ntr0l: :iconpsivamp: :iconnestalgica: :iconchilisan: :iconbirdysplat: :iconkatibear: :iconcosira: :iconsampdoria: :iconsaintpink: :icondapineapple: :iconcynicallydepressive: :iconsweetcloud: :iconinspiredimperfection: :iconshinzona: :iconanimedevildog: :iconkasenji: :icondeaths-discomfort: :iconmaynard1987: :iconcrapaud: :iconcedrus: :iconswissarmyblade: :iconjeremyti: :iconbeta3: :iconsadiya: :iconwasted-rebel: :iconcarsinmotion: :iconrandom-hero58: :iconpoprocksandcharlotte: :iconfarfromthebox::iconkarsun::iconcagester::iconellenjanuary::iconvayde::iconsadiya::iconsanart::iconmrockwood::icondruology:
:iconphotoboy1002001::iconcallsthedoghamburger::iconjust-an-artist::iconmaestrotomberi::iconshuttermonkey:


::Stamps::
stop by hadi68 stop killing lebanon stamp by backspace-1 Smokers Stamp by MissLittlewood Atheist Stamp by TranscendenceEngine:thumb60923752:
:thumb33812915: Stamp: Hezbollah by iNoor88 Screwed By An Elephant Stamp by Doublecrash ThumbsShare Member Stamp by LenaSkates tatstamp by dehouse42 Keep The Wonder by AtheistsClub:thumb59578879: Old Guys Rule by dehouse42 The Suicide Machines-3 by stampdedoo Tampons Stamp by Doublecrash I Love Jeddah Stamp Arabic by ILoveJeddah

Mature Content

I Fucking Support Profanity by Plankhead
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Sometimes I write because it keeps me sane

On the eve of my birthday, I find myself decidedly unexcited. It's almost troublesome. Things like birthdays and holidays have begun to lose their appeal to me. Perhaps it is the slow release of my childhood that I hold so dear forcing me into this state of something between melancholy and apathy. Is this what adulthood feels like? So few things make me smile anymore, and I'm so sensitive to everything people do. Sometimes I feel lost within my own mind, trying to discover the source of this newfound distaste for living that I've developed. This week has been horrible. I've been back in Detroit with my friends, attempting to have a good time but the every looming thought that I am leaving them all again is getting harder and harder to shove aside. I am glad that I officially saw everyone today although seeing Derek and Kat so miserable really bothers me. I guess because I hooked them up that I feel responsible for their happiness. But that's always my problem. I'm the perpetual bridesmaid.

I feel myself being dragged back down to how I used to feel, and for some reason I can't really stop it. I'm down on myself all the time, and not just physically... I'm really starting to hate the person I am, I just wish someone/anyone had something nice to say about me for once.

Why did I push you all away?

I miss Danny. I wish he was here. I wish someone was here.

I give up on writing this, it's only making me sound like a fourteen year old on livejournal.

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Sometimes I write because it keeps me sane

I am done with this site. I have my reasons. I left before and I should have never come back.

To all those who took the time to be my friends, thank you, you know where to reach me.

For those that didn't... well I wasn't worth it to you, you aren't worth it to me.

I'm going to take my apparently shitty, lying personality and bother someone else.

Bye.

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